Fic: See Me Through (3/3)

[cat_sdgirl]

Title: See Me Through - Last part
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: This story starts after the episode 'Dark Side Of The Moon'
Beta: icelily01     *Thank you so much sweetie :)*
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Summary: What happened after Dean throws the necklace in the trash. 
A/N: Song used in this story: 'Crawl' by The Superchick
A/N2: Icon made by the lovely jessicajay22 

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The wonder of it all
Is you see me through

“Dean… why… I mean, you…”

 

“Hey, Sammy.”

 

Even if someone else couldn’t, Sam heard fear and something else he wasn’t capable of reading in Dean’s voice. He was probably dragged here by Cas and Sam felt a little disappointment with knowing that Dean wasn’t here because he missed him. It was stupid. Of course he didn't! Who would, anyway? But he couldn't stop the feeling from showing up, alongside the fear and the hut that the rejection from Dean will cause.

 

Neither of them said anything, just looked at each other, lost and afraid.

 

“I’m sorry, Sam, but this is the only way I have to help you both.”

 

For as much as he wanted to be angry with Cas, Sam couldn’t, because the angel only wanted to help, after all. He took his eyes from Dean and looked at Cas instead, shaking his head.

 

“It’s okay, Cas, I know it is. Thank you.”

 

The angel smiled for a few seconds, making Sam wonder if he had imagined it, and prepared to go away. But he stopped, moving closer to Sam and asked: “Before I go, why did you say He heard you?”

 

“Well, because of this-“ he give Cas the stone slowly, “-It only showed up when I stopped talking. And I am completely sure it wasn’t there before that moment… so, what do you think?”

 

“Maybe you’re right Sam, I need to check it. Can you give me the necklace again?”

 

“Ye-“

 

“NO!”

 

Sam and Castiel looked at Dean in shock. It was the first time he had said something more than the greeting and it was the last thing they were expecting to hear, even Dean. He actually was scared as shit to be here when he knew that Sam was thinking he didn’t want to be with him. But that was not even close to the truth, he never wanted to push Sam away and hurt him; however he ended up doing just that. The last few days had been hell for Dean, thinking every minute about Sam leaving him for good, and that thought almost killed him. When they came back from Heaven, he really wished for Sam to leave him alone for a few hours, but it was supposed to be only hours, not days, and when Dean understood Sam wasn’t going to come looking for him, he begged hard in his head to reverse the last wish. He was at the point of doing anything to have his brother again.

 

But how he ended thinking about saying yes? He reached that moment when he realized he couldn’t be alone anymore, not after everything, and if Sam didn’t want to stay with him, he didn’t have anything that would make him want to live. Sam was the last thing he had, the only person who would remember him with love, but without that Dean was empty inside, with no hope.

But now that Cas put Sam’s memory in Dean’s brain and after what his brother said he feels so guilty that he doesn’t know how to talk with Sam. But he wants to say something - he wants his brother back with him.

 

“I’ll keep that, Cas, if you don’t mind. And the stone too, please.” Dean said. He never should have gotten rid of the necklace, he didn’t want to. But for just a moment he wanted to hurt Sam like he was hurting, but Sam ended up more hurt than he ever deserved. And Dean would change that.

 

When Cas handed over the two items to Dean, Sam tried to keep them for himself. “Please Dean, can you give them to me? I promise I’ll leave, but don’t throw them away!”

 

Dean could see Sam was scared and that hurt him more than anything. He needed to make Sam see he was wrong about Dean, that he would never make the same mistake twice. If it depended on him, he would never hurt his brother again.

 

“Cas, can you go please? I need to talk with Sam a little.”

 

Sam didn’t want to hear what Dean was going to say, it would kill him. Castiel was gone, and now he was alone with Dean, without knowing what to say or do.

 

At the same time, Dean wasn’t looking at Sam’s panicked face, but at the stone in his hand. He already saw it in his head, but now it was different, like he had Sam’s heart closer to him. And that felt amazing after days without even seeing Sammy.

 

“I’m sorry, Sam. I didn’t want to throw the necklace away, I swear. I just don’t know what got into me.”

 

“You don’t need to apologize Dean, I do-“

 

When Sam finished that sentence Dean was already in front of him, so close Sam almost felt the heat coming from his brother. He couldn’t read Dean’s face, he didn’t seem angry or sad, but he had a strange light in his eyes.

 

“Sam… I know you showed the wrong memories in Heaven and I really need to know why you didn’t tell me…”

 

“I-I though you would be mad at me… At first I fought them because I was trying to protect them from the demons. But when you found me, I knew I wasn’t in Hell. But I got scared that you would think I was using my powers to repress the memories and you would hate me more. I’m s-sorry I-I lied…”

 

Dean grabbed Sam shirt hard, pulling him closer. He put his hand on Sammy’s neck, touching his forehead with his own.

 

“I forgive you Sammy, for everything. For the demon blood, for Lucifer, for all of it. And I don’t hate you, I never will, because I’m not capable of doing it, I love you too much for that! Can you forgive me too, Sam?”


 

“I already did, Dean. You’re the most important person I have, and that will never change. Will you s-stay w-with me?”

 

Sam is scared to hear the answer; he wants to stay with his brother so much that he feels his eyes watering. And if Dean leaves again, Sam doesn’t know what he’ll do with himself. He needs his brother more than he should, but Dean doesn’t need to know that, or he will run away from Sam for sure.

 

“You won’t get rid of me that easily, baby brother. I’m not going anywhere, and neither are you.”

 

Dean crushes Sam hard against his chest and whispers into Sam’s neck: “I’m not letting you go, little Sammy. Not now, not ever.”

 

Dean feels all of Sam’s body touching him. His heart is beating fast and his body is on fire, making Dean want more of everything.

 

“Can you promise me something, Sam?”

 

“Sure Dean, what is it?”

 

“I really need to tell you something, but I’m scared you’ll leave if I do…”

 

Sam smiles at Dean fondly. “Don’t worry, you can tell me anything.”

 

Dean releases Sam from his embrace, stroking Sammy’s cheek with his fingertips. Then slowly he gets closer to Sam’s face, pressing their lips together. He was scared Sam would run away from him, but he can’t stop this now – now that he finally gets to taste Sam.

 

Sam is paralyzed, this is the last thing he expected coming from Dean and he doesn’t know how to react. He wants to respond so badly, but his body isn’t working the way he wishes.

 

Sam didn’t kiss back, so Dean moves away, a little scared. God, his brother is going to hate him now!

 

“I’m so sorry, Sam, please don’t-“

 

Dean didn’t have the chance to say what he wanted to because Sam’s mouth is on him again. Sam starts kissing harder, more desperate, his hands on Dean’s neck, caressing him. Dean groans and tries to move even closer to Sam’s body. He breaks the kiss first with the need to breathe.

 

“Sam, I-“

 

“I-I love you, Dean!”

 

Dean looks at Sam, surprised. He really didn’t expect to hear that, but it was the best thing Sam had ever said to him. He smiled happily at his brother and touched Sam’s lips with his fingers gently.

 

“So, are you okay with this?”


 

Sam starts laughing without warning. Dean didn’t expect that either, but the sound of his brother laughing makes Dean happier than he is able to explain. Sam is here with him and he doesn’t seem to hate Dean so he couldn’t ask for more than this.

 

Sam stops laughing and smiles at Dean, “You have no idea how okay I am with this.”

 

Dean laughs too and he takes the stone and the necklace from his pocket. Looking at his necklace he asks: “Do you mind if I keep this?”

 

Sam takes the amulet from Dean’s hand and puts it around his brother’s neck. “Of course I don’t mind, it’s yours. And the stone too, if you want…”

 

“No, I want you to have it. After all, you saved me with it.”

 

Sam was blushing, trying to hide his face from Dean. But then he asked astonished:

 

“How do you know that?”

 

“Cas showed me your memory… You don’t mind, do you? “

 

“I don’t. Now I understand how you knew I was lying in Heaven.”

 

“Yeah, and I heard you too. Would you really go to Hell to stop me from saying yes?”

 

“Yes, I would do anything for you Dean. And I couldn’t let you die again, I just couldn’t…”

 

Sam pulls Dean closer to him, holding him tight. He feels safe with his brother here, happier and more wanted than he’s felt in all his existence. He has his brother, best friend and now lover too with him, and there’s nothing more important than this in his life.

 

Before he could say something else, Dean was kissing him again.

 

“You weren’t paying attention to me, baby. I’ll get jealous!” Dean said playfully, between kissing Sam’s mouth.

 

Sam laughed hard, rolling his eyes, “Oh I’m really sorry, De, I promise I won’t do that again!” he answered, poking Dean’s belly.

 

Dean was still laughing when he noticed that Sam was not longer at his side, but sitting on the sand, looking at the stone in his hands. Dean sat close to him, trying to read Sam’s unreadable face, a little worried with what was in his brother’s mind.

 

“What’s wrong, Sammy?”

 

“It’s nothing, man, really-“ and Sam was smiling at Dean, genuinely happy, looking more like he had  a few years ago, “- I was just thinking that this is a great place to be my heaven, I like it here.”

 

Dean pushed himself close to Sam, sitting him between his legs and pressed his baby brother against his chest lovingly.


 

“That sounds good, but only if you share this heaven with me. After all, we’re soulmates, so I guess you don’t have much choice…”

 

Sam looked behind himself with a huge grin. “You remember that?”

 

“Yeah, and I agree completely with Ash.”

 

Sam watched the sea, now brighter with the light coming from the rising sun and whispered: “Me too.”

If I had to crawl
Well you'd crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you see me through

Comments

[authoressnebula.livejournal.com]

Beautiful beautiful ending. ♥♥

Oh boys. You're only able to not be broken when you're with each other. OH.

I loved it! And I loved the lyric choices you picked throughout the story. You did a great job sweetie!

~Nebula

[cat-sdgirl.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie :D
I love you so much for following my story until the end <3
I'm glad you like the song I chose *hugs*

[palodoecious.livejournal.com]

I loved it!! realy awesome fic, and love!
Thank you!

[cat-sdgirl.livejournal.com]

No, thank you! for reading and for writing a cute comment for me :D
*big hugs*

[brianshanelvr.livejournal.com]

^_^

[cat-sdgirl.livejournal.com]

Thank you, hon :D
*hugs*

[ladycrystal-c.livejournal.com]

Oh my God the ending was so beautiful. *wiping little tear*
You could feel Sam's sadness throughout the story but it ended beautifully. I feel all warm inside :)
*hug*

[cat-sdgirl.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, sweetie (:
I really felt Sam's emotions through the all story, like they were mine one and I couldn't stop giving them an happy ending :D
*hug*